Does God really only give you no more than you can handle?
I look back over the past few years of surgeries, broken arms, health crisis', a move, and a new baby and I can without a doubt say that God gave me way more than I could handle. Did I make it through everything? Yes, but not without completely and totally relying on the mercy and grace of God. I did not make it on my own, it was not me who could handle these insurmountable odds, it was my Lord and Savior who carried me through to the other side. I learned that God will and does give me more than I can handle but that He will be there with me, even when I stumble and fall. Even when I cry out and say I can't do it anymore! God will comfort me, but that doesn't mean that He will take me out of that place. Am I without hope? No! I have come to understand that even when placed in hard times, I have an amazing Father who is with me and will help me to learn and help others during these trials that we all must go through. I have found myself, in the middle of hardships, learning to lean on Him and seeing for the first time the struggles of others. Once, when Isaac was quite young, the hospital scheduled his surgery for late in the morning. I was screaming out to God, this is not fair! He is so young! Why does he have to suffer this way? I cried and prayed for God to change his time, to make it a mix up and for him to be taken earlier. When we got to the hospital that day, it was a struggle for me. I wanted to take my little boy home and forget his surgery. I was ANGRY and HEARTBROKEN.
Then I saw him.
The tiny 2 month old baby who had taken Isaac's early surgery spot. He was soooo small and frail. His parents were so worried and anguish was written on their faces. Their eyes were red from tears and the grandmother couldn't stop crying. When that little boy went back with his parents to surgery, I held that grandmother while she cried. I sat with her in the recovery room after the surgery and told her that God was here and He was with her little grandchild.
It was then that I realized that it isn't always about me, sometimes we are put where we are, for others, who really need us.